The Dilemma

It's a bit tiring kind of day. Did some household chores, cooked, washed dishes, prepared food and fed the dogs..and the likes. Haaayyy..but because I really missed blogging, I'mma gonna post one before I dozed off to sleep.

I have a very usual problem. Wanna guess what it is? YEP! You are right! If you're thinking about money now, hell yeah! You are absolutely,effin' right!!! hahahaha! Well, told you it's really a very common issue. I just want to buy stuff for my last hurrah in hosting the IE-EMG-SEM Night this coming Nov. 28 :( I don'y know why but there is really something wrong with the way I do and carry my makeup. I'm not sure if it's because of my aging face but I am wuite sure it's because of the products I use now. 

Fashion 21's 2 way foundation is good. But it leaves my skin very cakey, I mean, it gives off this very fake look that's why I'm not feeling confident whenever I use it. Sadly, it's my only powder :( Apart from that, my liquid foundation looks off!! I don't know why either! haaayyy.. I sort of admitted that it becomes patchy whenever I use it, but it gives off a very flawless look. However, it doesn't look good now :( ugggghhh!! I wanna buy new ones and just stick to the products that looks good on me. like Fanny Serrano's 2 way foundation powder others.

I also want to buy a new mascara, new Brow pencil, a contouring powder, and eyeliner :( haaayyyy.. I really pray that God will bless me and shower me financial blessings in order for me to really give it off my best as i bid my final hosting stunt with my beloved department and student council..

I just wanna finish my thesis and be able to just do all things, buy the things i need and i want and most especially my family's wants and needs..

 

My First Blog After N Years?

It's been quite long years since the last time I have written a blog. I used to have one, actually it is still active and dang! it's very shameful to read all the blogs there because I kept on talking and writing about only one person and it was KEN.

Well, I must say my life revolved around him for 5 years. And honestly, I can't tell if I have COMPLETELY forgotten about him now or if I have already moved on. I guess, I just went on. Went on with the flow of life around me. Though, I am not quite sure if he even existed 'coz everything happened in the cyber world of unlimited text and yahoo messenger. *Sorry yahoo messenger pa kasi non*

He was only an imagination but it left a big whole in my life. I never got the chance to see him in person or even hear his voice but still i fell for him. And everyday for 5 years, I know I did fall in love with him. Maybe that is why i wasn't really able to move on coz' up until now, he is still a mystery. Saw his fb account, he changed his cover photo to what he describe as his little man. And the little man is a very handsome little baby boy. Seeing that picture constricted my heart, he could have been mine, the little baby. I remember all ken's promises, our dreams and our plans. Now, he is busy accomplishing it all without me. Rather, he is doing all of 'em with his OTL <3 #Laslaspulso

I admit, I was deeply hurt. I wanted to cry, I even thought of sending a message to his cousin Kat, but i won't dare. I have to totally forget about him, everything related to him, our memories, and especially myself. The JHA who was inlove with him. but how could i ever forget him if even my name, jha, was given by him.

However, I think. I am already moved on. I was just caught on a moment where I am sad and currently looking for someone to love again. Then, I saw him happy and proud. Maybe I'm just jealous because he is happy now and i am not. Because the same person he left that once upon a time is still the same person up to now.

But hey, wait! I am still working on my masterpiece :) God is not yet done with me, He has better plans. and the only thing i can do now is to completely surrender to God's will and plan and let Him take over my life. I  have many dreams for my family, my parents, my brother especially my nheena. And I won't stop until i haven't reached that pedestal of success. God will guide me through His Plan.

Just wait for me, you will see and you will look up to me. I will be someone GREAT just wait for it :) I will have my own precious TIME :)