My First Blog After N Years?

It's been quite long years since the last time I have written a blog. I used to have one, actually it is still active and dang! it's very shameful to read all the blogs there because I kept on talking and writing about only one person and it was KEN.

Well, I must say my life revolved around him for 5 years. And honestly, I can't tell if I have COMPLETELY forgotten about him now or if I have already moved on. I guess, I just went on. Went on with the flow of life around me. Though, I am not quite sure if he even existed 'coz everything happened in the cyber world of unlimited text and yahoo messenger. *Sorry yahoo messenger pa kasi non*

He was only an imagination but it left a big whole in my life. I never got the chance to see him in person or even hear his voice but still i fell for him. And everyday for 5 years, I know I did fall in love with him. Maybe that is why i wasn't really able to move on coz' up until now, he is still a mystery. Saw his fb account, he changed his cover photo to what he describe as his little man. And the little man is a very handsome little baby boy. Seeing that picture constricted my heart, he could have been mine, the little baby. I remember all ken's promises, our dreams and our plans. Now, he is busy accomplishing it all without me. Rather, he is doing all of 'em with his OTL <3 #Laslaspulso

I admit, I was deeply hurt. I wanted to cry, I even thought of sending a message to his cousin Kat, but i won't dare. I have to totally forget about him, everything related to him, our memories, and especially myself. The JHA who was inlove with him. but how could i ever forget him if even my name, jha, was given by him.

However, I think. I am already moved on. I was just caught on a moment where I am sad and currently looking for someone to love again. Then, I saw him happy and proud. Maybe I'm just jealous because he is happy now and i am not. Because the same person he left that once upon a time is still the same person up to now.

But hey, wait! I am still working on my masterpiece :) God is not yet done with me, He has better plans. and the only thing i can do now is to completely surrender to God's will and plan and let Him take over my life. I  have many dreams for my family, my parents, my brother especially my nheena. And I won't stop until i haven't reached that pedestal of success. God will guide me through His Plan.

Just wait for me, you will see and you will look up to me. I will be someone GREAT just wait for it :) I will have my own precious TIME :)