Like for example, Kris...
Told him I haven't moved on. But honestly, I didn't really fall in love with him. I think I did in some way but it was different. What we had was more of a burden than what love should bring like happiness and butterflies. I told him I haven't moved on because I wanted him to go after me. I just wanted some attention, affection and some importance. Maybe this is caused by reading too much Wattpad stories.
Haayyyy, I miss being in love. I miss the good morning's and goodnight's, the take care's and iloveyou's. I missed being important,special to someone. I miss being someone else's world. I am scared that I already have forgotten how it is to be in love and be loved as well. I am scared that maybe because of the decisions I have made, I let that one special slip through my grasp and now he belongs to someone else. I am scared I won't be loved anymore. It has been such a long time since I've felt the fast beating of my heart, the excitement that rushes through my veins whenever I talk to that special person, that butterflies that flutters in my stomach whenever he smiles. I miss falling in love.
I know it is not my top priority but I'm just trying over some luck to catch an inspiration. Told you this is going to be many things, I also told Kris that now I am more matured because I am able to justify and put labels on my feelings. Before, basta kiligin in love na, While now, I can completely tell if I am truly in love or just being comfortable to someone, being just friends. Lover and Confidant are two different people. I know that now and I am really happy I can finally recognize their difference.
Ano pa ba? No more. Just Plain Ordinary And Null.
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